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Post by hg on Apr 22, 2005 12:18:06 GMT -4
Thanks guys *hugs* but hey Lance, good luck with danceing  |
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 22, 2005 12:20:01 GMT -4
yeah good luck
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Post by hg on Apr 22, 2005 17:19:54 GMT -4
OK, I'm gonna say it: LIFE SUCKS!!!!!!!!
BUT there is a reason why we live!!!!!
my reason is my nephew who was left behind when my sister died. at the day when i heard about my sister's death i knew that I AM the one who will rase him when my mother is not able to, my last and only sister doesn't care about him. so that means i am the only one he's got. and that's the ONLY reason why i am still alive. YES he beats me, disrespects me, put me down in every way he can......but i live children and i love him. he's only one i've got and i only live for him.
cos i know that when i attempt suicide my mother will not survive this and my granny will not survive my mother's death...... and that............ so i'm the only one who is left to my nephew... taking care of my nephew is the last thing what i can to my sister who died.....................................
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 22, 2005 18:18:33 GMT -4
wow I have no idea what most of you are talking about but all I can say is that who cares what happens in your life? It's the good things that you should think about no matter how hard it is to forget the bad stuff and everyone should be thankful that their alive today right this very second and every second you have because things can changed fast for you and just as easy as you were born and just as easy as you breathe you breath can be taken away and you can die...Like sure no one actualy knows if there is life after death but it's nice to think about whether there's an actual place like heaven or reincarnation or something it's always good to think of what you have then what has happened to you thats bad...It's the only way I get through life just take time to think about all the good stuff you have you have a home and a roof over your head you all have computers or at least access to one and you all are really great people..well some of you are dumb but everyone is at some point of time but ya just think of what you have and then it wont bother you so much about ending life because you all have something great and you all have something or someone you love so that's really all anyone can hope for
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 22, 2005 18:19:16 GMT -4
Well said Draco
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 22, 2005 19:17:57 GMT -4
Wow I have a way of crasing parties dont i?
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Post by Lance Rookwood on Apr 23, 2005 2:06:44 GMT -4
Thanks guys *hugs* but hey Lance, good luck with danceing HES A HUSBAND! Woohoo! Heh sorry. |
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Post by hg on Apr 23, 2005 12:26:11 GMT -4
HES A HUSBAND! Woohoo! Heh sorry. coolies  how was the wedding? and Dracie-you dind't crash anything. and you're absolutely right |
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Post by Lance Rookwood on Apr 23, 2005 13:37:39 GMT -4
Oh it was sooooo awesome! Still unbelieveable though that my brother got married. One of the best parts was that Brandon went up to the DJ and requested a song and pointed to me, so it was a groom sister dance, with just us on the floor, while his friends were taking pictures and recording us hehe.
They just left for their honeymoon 37 minutes ago.
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 23, 2005 13:56:40 GMT -4
I did too but I don't care I'm used to it
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Post by Daman Chase on Apr 23, 2005 14:27:53 GMT -4
well that sucks granger..im sorry your life hasnt turned out the way youd hoped. i hope things get better for you..as for me, its hard knowing that i may not beat this..i could die anyday know..leaving my wife widowed and my two children without a father...LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, who gives a shit if all that crap has happened...im dying of cancer and im on here having a blast talking to my best friend..the only reason your life may seem to suck so much is cause you're dwelling on all that shit. my life hasnt been that easy either kid, its not easy to end up like this after all ive worked for..but im living it up cause i dont know when my last breath is going to be..and for now..i dont care. I didnt read all of this but i want to say a few things...If you want to read this then i hope if brings some since of ease to you and if you dont want to read it i still wish you the best that life can offer you. We all have trials and tribulations no one can doubt that. Its a natural law in teh world that each person has troubles along with the greatest things to make you smile. I havent had the best of life myself and i dont say mine is worse than any of you alls nro will i say any of yours is worse than mine because each person handles thigns in their own way. That being said James has cancer. I have delt with many loved ones that had cancer. I cant say i know what hes going through cause i myself havent had it or been through it. Yet i can say i can relate to his wife and child. before i get into my uplifting speech id like to share a bit about my life. When i was just a little child 2 or 3 my sister who is 4 years older than me was molested by my fathers step dad. When she spoke of the matter our own flesh and blood told her she was a lier to her face. There were days im sure my mother had to go without food because my father would spend all the money that came home on what he waned and she was only left with decenty enough to get somethign for my sister and I to eat. I wouldnt doubt if my dad abused my mother. She wont speak on it but from the way my grandmother talk on how often shed come out of the ouse crying or upset about my dad id say its a huge posiblity. My cousin was soon molested by the same man not long after and finally he was taken to court and he was lost. My father i believe was highly pissed at the whole ordeal. Growign up things i cant really remmebr but that my mom remarried to my step father who mind you was more of a father than my real dad. We moved here when i was 5 and i have lived here since then. I was teased ridiculed and madeful off every year up until highschool about different things. Words im sorry but the truth be told they hurt more that actions. ITs one thign to see someone make fun of you an another to sit there defenceless as they make fun of you. When i reached the 6th grade my father and I were no longer in communication because parently in his eyes we didnt want to be a part of his life. in reality we were always caught up in school, sports, and band even Drama for myself. that on his weekends he didnt want to come and sit through a ballgame before picking us up to take us back to his place so we just didnt go. When i reached teh 10th grade my stepfather was informed he had cancer. I have never seen such a strong man cry in all my life until the day he sat us down and was telling us he had cancer. Not only wsa it cancer he had deterated disk in his spine and tumors on the back of his head and neck. He died later that year and it was the worst thing i think anyone can go through. I have delt with friends that have commited sucide, friedns that have od on drugs, even friends that have died because of driving drunk. I have often told people that they need to stay far from be cause im like the angel of death anyone i get close to it seems it stripped from my grasp by death itself or some other reason. I graduated in the year 2003 and well low and behold my father didnt show and my stepdad wand gon so he couldnt be there. By this time his step son of 30something had nothing to do with our family because my mother talked to hsi wife of 17 years be believed to be cheatign on him which was a lie he was completely wrong. He still doesnt talk to my mother but he talks to me and my brothers and sisters. What a bastard eh? A year or year and a half ago i was in a bad car wreck. I flipped my car 4 time but amazingly walked away with just bumps and bruises. My car was totaled and would you believe the first thing i said when i got of the car was "God pelase dont let my mother kill me about the car." that was all that matted to me. the car and what my mother would say. My mother called my sister and when i finally got to talk to her she was balling on the other end. Surprisingly she has a much softer heart than me and was at my dads house. asking if i wanted to talk to him i didnt wan to say no so i said sure. He asked about my car and all but in teh end the only thing he said was Sorry aout your car. My step mother showed more concern and affection by at least saying she was happy i was alright and that sh eloved me. I mean....wheres the love of a father there? I dont have a father the one man i had for a father died of cancer. And I miss him horribly. now that a brief story of my life is psoted i want to speak words of ease. --------------------------------------------- James...there are just as many people to survive from cancer that have died. Dont give in to everythgin the doctors say. If they say you have a couple of years make it seem like hundreds of years. The moment you start to set into everthign they say is the day things will really start gettign bad. you have to have hope in yourself and believe that with the help of God you can make it through. Tell your wife to be strong. Its going to be a long and difficult journy and she will need you as much as you will need her. As bad of a situation as this is it will only pull the two of you closer together. Dont let your child worry. He needs to grow up to at least know that his father was strong and there for him through even your worst situations. I am praying for you my friend and i hope all works out in the end. and Live life to its fullest hold nothigng back not now not never. Hermione and Serverus...you two have been through a womans worst nightmare. I am sure no female wasnt to face a situation of rape. I can only tell you to be strong to find light in the dark tunnel you travel. there is always light and it will always outweight the darkness. find the good things in youre life and strive off those. dont give up and do live life to all it has to offer. Fight for your rights to live a happy life. I know you all can do it. as i need to believe that i myself can. |
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Post by hg on Apr 23, 2005 15:00:05 GMT -4
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Post by James on Apr 23, 2005 15:40:23 GMT -4
James...there are just as many people to survive from cancer that have died. Dont give in to everythgin the doctors say. If they say you have a couple of years make it seem like hundreds of years. The moment you start to set into everthign they say is the day things will really start gettign bad. you have to have hope in yourself and believe that with the help of God you can make it through. Tell your wife to be strong. Its going to be a long and difficult journy and she will need you as much as you will need her. As bad of a situation as this is it will only pull the two of you closer together. Dont let your child worry. He needs to grow up to at least know that his father was strong and there for him through even your worst situations. I am praying for you my friend and i hope all works out in the end. and Live life to its fullest hold nothigng back not now not never. Thanks Daman. First..I know what its like to be abused and then ditched out on by your parent, my mother sounds like she could be your dads twin. I doubt if she were alive today that she would care that I have cancer or that my family is stuggling through this. I honesly havent been dwelling on it that much, I mean yeah it sucks and yeah I may die..but I dont really care right now. I'm fighting my way through this and in the mean time living my life the way I always have, but noticing the things I use to take for granted a lot more. I love my daughter, my unborn child, my wife and my best friend Jenny more than anything in this world and I plan to do everything I can to make sure that I'm still here for them when this things over.  |
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 23, 2005 20:48:40 GMT -4
Wow to meet people who have been through so much and still keep going is amazing. Daman you deffinantly have an awsome inner strength.
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 23, 2005 21:01:16 GMT -4
No what's amazing is that they can share it with everyone...I honestly can't share mine..and really everyone has good inner whatsamacallit it's just some people use it more then others
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 23, 2005 21:03:22 GMT -4
Your right, and don't feel bad Draco I can't share mine either. And its called inner strength or something like that.
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 23, 2005 21:04:50 GMT -4
lol ya im an idiot i couldn't remember lol oh well ya like I don't usualy compare things to anything but mine is so...dumb lol oh well
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 23, 2005 21:07:19 GMT -4
I doubt its dumb, I just .. don't want to talk about mine.
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Post by Draco Malfoy on Apr 23, 2005 21:38:48 GMT -4
Well compared it is and if you think about it *shrugs* only a few people know about it and I like it that way because I hate it when people feel sorry for me because I'm still here and I'm still happy about myself when I think about the stuff I have now and although some days it brings stupid stuff back I just sit and listen to music..it's about the only thing hat understands anything *shrugs*
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Post by Courtney C. Kirkle on Apr 23, 2005 22:01:12 GMT -4
I can understand that. Mine isn't like that but I am happy in many ways to be where i am.
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